~~ CAUTION! Blonde Thinking ~~

blondie_proud

And just an end. What begins, has to finish so... I'm here, three years later trying to think about everything what happened to me. How I began, and how I end.

I'm not the same person. I've not the same friends.
I was in love, I was excited for beginnig a new life without leaving my former life behind.
And now I'm in dislove twice, I'm afraid of beginnig a whole new life, leaving lots of important things behind.


And I guess that the most important thing about all of this, and the reason why I'm so sad it's that it shouldn't being ending like this. A brilliant future in a foreign country should be waiting for me. But it isn't. I'm stucked here, with all this fear, without having a reason to move forward. And, when that's not enough, I'm so angry with the only thing in these three years that makes me have a passion, that I'm not passionate about this anymore. I'm disappointed, I'm sad, and I get just an 8,2. And it was hard. It has been very hard. Because I didn't find a reason for keeping on learning, because what I should win won't come, and I knew that. I've get an 8,2 and I've cried so many times in front of my book. And I've remembered you in every class I attend to.


And now, my dreamed end is not here. You're not going to take me with you. I'm not going to know about you anymore.

I try to move forward once and again. I almost get that, but I'm always disappointed again, I can't give 100% anymore because I've not percentage left. So I keep trying.


And this ends.
And I'm gonna miss it.


My life is to be continued...


PuLi!!

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