While my E-sense dissolves in any kinf of E-motion...
I'm always trying to figure out what's the most important thing...
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Gosh, cannot believe... more than 1 yr...
Tenho adiado tantas coisas como estes posts que nunca vêm parar aqui... mais de um ano!
Absurdo! Várias coisas eu venho acumulando e deixando por fazer... Coisas que deveriam definitivamente ser feitas. Só pra listar algumas: pacotes fazendo aniversário no meu quarto que deveriam ter sido enviados por correio há meses, peças que eu não terminei de escrever, a dança que parei também, etc, etc, etc. E não sei porque diabos eu perco o meu precioso tempo com bobagens. BO-BA-GENS!
Sometimes I miss certain things so bad and get so fuckin stupid because of them... That I feel happy meeting any bastard who can talk in English with me, also I start keeping in touch with people I really need to forget...
I go crazy spending money on trips and stuff, and then I go crazy because I gotta move and don't have enough...
Actually, I don't even know where I wanna go and what to do, what a big mess!
I'm tired of all the things that made me stuck at this place, I don't wanna carry them any longer... My fuckin shoulders ache! Enough of those people only draining my blood and not giving me any feedback! Enough of waking up every morning to pretend or at least pretend to pretend, and never having a chance to be myself! Enough of having no strenght and feeling like a damn teenager! No more boring weekends, no more ruining my life here!
I feel bad because there are few people that I really trust, and it's always hard to say goodbye...
Well, the worst part of it is I'm sure that I'll still be here for at least 4 months... Ok, maybe more than that. I could handle, right?
I need to breath!
E chega de reclamar! Tenho que resolver tudo o mais rápido possível... como puder...
Até lá, só mesmo a Camille e o Shane pra tornarem os meus dias menos tediosos...
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